The decision to move to Mexico was full of apprehension and excitement. All my life I felt like I didn’t belong in Canada, I always felt that I needed to be on an Island surrounded by water. Thinking that this was just a dream I had or maybe it was because my life was so full of craziness. Living in active addiction for 28 years, running around causing hurricanes in my own life and others maybe I just wanted to escape.
However after being clean for some years that feeling never left me. I got into the routine of being a productive member of society. Getting and maintaining a job for a good company but still felt under-valued and under paid. Trying to maintain a lifestyle I could not afford. Now I am not talking about living the high-life. I am talking about renting a basement suite with cable, Internet and a used car; that always broke down. Living check to check, racking up credit card debt on what the media told me I needed and wanted to fit in.
Propaganda! The TV telling me that I needed this new car to be happy or the latest fashion designs to be a part of mainstream society. I always felt like I never measured up! I was taught to get an education, a good job, a reliable car, mortgage, marriage, kids etc. The dream? It was always about how much I made and what I could afford. I was sick of it! Success was measured by what I had in the bank or with the toys I owned. He who dies with the most toys, Wins! Well the fact is your still dead and then what?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RlFRMM87IU8&list=TLfIm4pRyr6eQ
I needed something more!
That something more is God. That emptiness that I had, trying to fill up that hole, with things, that I couldn’t afford or really want in the hopes that I would feel complete. Today that empty hole is gone because I allowed Jesus to be present in my life. Today my God has a name and His name is Jesus. HE made some promises to me that I believe. Matthew 11:28 “Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest.
Today I am restful, peaceful and full of gratitude that I listened to His voice inside me. I no longer need to buy stuff! I gave all the stuff up and I am much happier for it. I do not watch TV here with all the “I must buy” crap. I don’t need the expensive toys that I once needed. Well, to be honest I still have a love of dive gear that enables me to pursue my passion of God’s underwater playground. Here, my backyard is mostly, free, I have access to the ocean on either side of me.
I am forever grateful that I took a chance of the unknown and made the one of the best decisions in my life and moved to Mx.
Blessings
scubagirl
